Friday, December 21, 2012

christmas wish list...

when i was a youngin', every thanksgiving my brother and i would hand out our christmas list to everyone at the table.  unfortunately that would be very inappropriate to do at 25. not to mention that everything i want now is really really expensive!

so here is my list. i'd be lucky if i get one of the above!  but in my dream world, i would be blessed to get:

3  //  wacom tablet
12  //  soho sofa
14  //  stria bed set

... but what i want most of all, is the last little bit of money to pay off my car so i can officially call my mini, mine!

a girl can dream right!?

Thursday, December 20, 2012

hello there, its been a while...

just incase you were worried - i'm still alive!

it's been quite some time since i've posted. i miss it around here, i swear i do!  so much has happened in the past few months. so many good things.

last year i made a commitment to myself to work on things that i've struggled with all my life.  i found a great therapist who i adore and i thank her for helping me grow into the person i am today.  but not only do i thank her, i thank taylor and my family for their support, but most importantly i thank myself. a huge pat on the back to me for working my butt of to have all that i have today.  having genuine pride in yourself is a beautiful feeling.

everything is coming together and its exhilarating. everyday brings something new and exciting.  in the past few months i went from being very unhappy at my work, to absolutely loving it. and not just by luck. i learned how to be assertive, take charge and find my voice.  not too long ago i was ready to move on to something new. i won't get into to much detail but i know that no matter my decision i would have ended up just fine. but i decided to take a leap of faith at work and speak up. since then i've been promoted, got a healthy raise, traveled to toronto for a photo shoot, met some famous photographers, traveled to new york with my boss for a week.... i'm so very happy with where i am at in my career and it is such a freeing feeling coming from someone who was so doubtful about the future for quite some time. everyday is a challenge, but i love the people i work with and i wake up in the morning excited for a new day.

my personal life is moving along just fine too.  i've found a new love - pilates - and joined a studio up the street from my house (i'm obsessed). it seems taylor and i get closer and closer everyday. just when i think there is no way for us to get closer, something happens that brings us together. i feel i can talk to him about anything - and it took me a long while to get to this point. we talk about things that are new and uncomfortable, but its a safe place and i love him for that.

all in all, life is great and i can't wait to see what 2013 has to offer. i'm still thinking about what my new years resolutions goals will be- i already have a few. one being to visit these parts more often.


here are some bits and pieces of my life in the past 3 months...

Thursday, October 4, 2012

waffle festivities

a cloudy morning called for a small celebration
and what better way to celebrate a cozy morning 
than with some comfort food

last week taylor picked out a delicious white peach at the farmers market
yes, thats right, only one
the golden one
one out of a million

so we chopped it up and threw it on top of a good ol' waffle
with some greek yogurt and a touch of whipped cream

and mmm mmm it was yummy
starting off the day right
.... i have a feeling today is going to be a good one!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

girls weekend 4th annual

a couple weekends ago my girlfriends and i had our 4th annual girl's trip
this time in san diego
we rented out a beautiful cottage house in ocean beach
and had the best time!

the weekend was filled with good food, laughs, dancing and memories to last a lifetime
not to mention a new addition (becca)
"she made the cut!" :)

a toast to some of my favorite women in the world
strong, independent, beautiful (inside & out) and courageous!

"life is beautiful my dear friends, never forget. there is nothing that we can't do"

Monday, August 13, 2012

the sea.port

taylor and i took our annual trip up north for our favorite music festival, pickathon. we decided to make it a week long vacation this year spent a few days in seattle and spend the rest of the week in portland. this was the first time i experienced seattle in the summertime and fell even more in love. 

we finally got to stay at the ace hotel in both seattle and portland!! I've always wanted to stay at the hip hotel and it was everything i imagined and more - revolving walls, glass encased showers... 

we ate amazing food and had fun wondering the two cities by foot - just the two of us.  its been a week now since we've been back in l.a. and there hasn't been a day since our return that i haven't reminisced about this amazing trip. would you believe me if i told you i started crying (no joke) on our flight back to l.a.? this trip was rejuvenating in every which way - mind, body and soul.  ive never felt more at home than when i'm up north.

until next time ...

i leave with with some new found music (see below)

Pickathon by chelsea on Grooveshark

Sunday, July 22, 2012

summer blueberry cobbler

 well hello there
its been a while
...i've missed you!

so as a gift of my long absence i share with you this a.m.a.z.i.n.g. blueberry cobbler recipe that i decided to try from the latest bon apetit magazine. berries are at their peak right now and i couldnt pass up the opportunity to do something delicious with 2lbs of blueberries from the farmers market!
what you need:
1 1/2 cups plus 3 tbsp. all-purpose flour
3 tbsp plus 1 cup sugar
1 1/2  tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp kosher salt
6 tbsp. (3/4 stick) chilled unsalted butter, cut into 1/2" pieces
1/2 cup plus 1 tbsp creme fraiche (or sour cream)
6 cups fresh blueberries (about 2lbs)
2 tbsp fresh lemon juice
1 tbsp finely grated lemon zest

what you do:
preheat oven to 375 degrees. whisk 1 1/2 cups flour, 3 tbsp sugar, baking powder and salt in a large bowl. add butter; using your fingertips, incorporate until only pea-size lumps remain. gently mix in creme fraiche. knead in bowl until a biscuit-like dough forms, 5-7 turns (over-mixing will make dough tough).
combine remaining 1 cup sugar, remaining 3 tbsp flour, berries, juice and zest in a large bowl. toss to coat. pour into 8x8x2 glass baking dish or divide among six 6-oz ramekins. tear biscuit topping into quarter-size crumbles; scatter over berries. 
bake cobbler until juices are thick and bubbling and topping is cooked through and deep golden brown, 20-25 minutes for ramekins or 45-50 minutes for baking dish. let cook for at least 1 hour.

this was the perfect summer treat to a beautiful sunday.
today taylor and i did our usual:
farmers market, beach day, cook a yummy dinner on the bbq
... and last will be hbo's true blood and newsroom
i hope you have a great rest of your sunday!!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

waffle wednesdays

....yes they still happen
just not as frequently as every week.

this week was organic blueberries from the farmers market, inside and on top
mmm mmm mmmm!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

up close and personal: changes

i realize it has been a while since i've been here! not to worry, i think of you every day. for the sake of keeping this blog genuine, i only blog when i feel like it (as bratty as that sounds), but its true, i won't blog for the sake of blogging...

but im here and tonight i feel like filling you in on what has been going on in the past couple of weeks. life overall has been great. to start, i was given a prettyyy healthy raise at work. i was quite suprised at the amount! it came at the perfect time. i'm excited to pay off/down some things and be on my merry way debt-free.

other than that, i've been dealing with new life experiences that have been quite challenging, but rewarding at the same time. perhaps it comes with being 20-something, but life seems to be changing faster than ever. for someone like me, where change and uncertainty have always been a big challenge, ive been put in situations that are forcing me to cope a little better - i really have no other choice, otherwise i'd be losing my mind! taylor's furniture business has really taken off, so much so, that he quit his day job and is taking his furniture on full force. i am so proud of him and feel blessed to be with a guy that is not only handsome and smart, but ambitious and passionate. he's an inspiration to me every day... and i hope that i am to him too.  but with this new endeavor comes hardships too. no one said starting a business would be a cake walk...scratch that... in relevant terms, no one said being with someone who is starting a business would be a cake walk. i have had countless lonely nights. things we used to enjoy together regularly, like cooking dinner watching our favorite t.v. shows, going to farmers markets, etc have all been put on hold and i find myself doing them alone. i've picked up a few things to preoccupy my time, like go to the gym every day after work, take molly on long walks, etc., but nothing that fills that need to be with my partner.  i was very anxious the past couple of weeks wondering if this is something i want to commit to in the long term - can i be with someone that won't be around much? will i be like my mother who was married to a work-a-holic and was lonely? oh the what-ifs!

well with a little help from some wise women in my life (you know who you are) ive come to a happy, peaceful place. it was hard to get here, and im sure there will be more trying times to come, but if i could share some advice that i've been given and advice that i've formulated on my own i feel it may be helpful for some who find themselves in my position... or a similar position.

i'm beginning to understand that loving unconditionally allows you to be you and him/her to be him/her. as hard as it is for me to fully accept, i understand that it is good to just love someone without guarantees. it will make me (and him) independent and strong. it is really a necessary lesson we must all learn in life. needing guarantees in life can lead to crazy making (trust me i know) and having faith that all will be okay no matter what is a peaceful existence. i'm sure it will take life experience to fully get that there are no guarantees... just wishful thinking... but im going to try as much as i can to remember this when i am feeling insecure.

i think coming from a family where the begginning of my life was incredibly unstable (alcoholic mother, affairs, work-aholic father), to things getting easier and "seemingly" safe, to chaotic again in my late teens until recently, i live in a state of "impending doom". in a [sub-conscious] effort to feel safe, i try to grab things that i can trust to be a "constant." things are always changing (like day-by-day!) so nothing ever feels stable.

in many ways taylor is the perfect match for me (and hopefully me for him). he is honest and lives in the present and it forces me to be okay with what is in front of me - not what is 5 years ahead. trying to learn how to deal with change will not only be good for my relationship(s), but with work and other things. this is a scary time in my life because i'm experiencing new things i have no past reference for. sometimes i feel that if i had something to hold on to as a safety net (like knowing whether or not he wants to be with me in the future), that things would feel less "scary".

i find myself falling into "well why doesnt he say he wants to be with me forever!?" its so easy to go there. and then i talk to girls who care only about finding a man that will marry them. they don't say i want to find someone i can grow with, travel with, experience lows with. it all seems backwards (or perhaps im backwards?) and its moments like those when i'm able to take a step back and realize thats not what love is all about. i think im exactly where i should be at right now (i mean i guess there are no rules so if i say & feel that i am, then i must be, right?). my aunt gave me the best advice once that has stuck with me - "you should get married, when it doesnt matter..."

anyway, i am so proud of my b and everything that he accomplishes on a day-to-day basis. i'm happy i can be with someone that will help me grow, someone who allows me to be me and to explore things that i enjoy outside of him. its also nice to hear that he is proud of me and all that i have accomplished in the past year. together we are becoming 2 separate, incredibly whole people that make for an outstanding "us".

i can honestly say i don't know what will happen (who can?), but i know that right now is fabulous and im happy with who and what i am becoming. im gaining confidence & working on myelf and that is very important (and hard)! i see how easy it is to fall into what everyone else is doing (trust me, i know!), but in my heart of hearts i dont feel like time is being wasted. i support everything taylor is doing and enjoying the time that we do have together. i'm also taking advantage of the time when he's away to explore some interests - like baking, jewelry making and photography.

i believe in love, i believe in patience, i believe in awareness

i'm also learning to believe in timing...

Thursday, May 10, 2012

best friend's bridal shower

this past weekend i attended my oldest friend's bridal shower
she's still one of my best friends
...that'll never change.

it was a beautiful day celebrating a beautiful lady
i am honored to be chosen as one of her six bridesmaids
and to be able to share with her one of the best moments in life.

here is a tid-bit of the photos i took last sunday.
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Saturday, May 5, 2012

birthday sailing

today was tay and my day to celebrate his birthday
sooo i planned a lovely day for the two of us
a "stay-cation" if you will...
we started at the tasting kitchen on abbot kinney for a well-awaited brunch
i booked the reservation a month in advance (yes a month!) because i heard it was hard to get one...
(i may have been a lil overly cautions?)

anyhoo - it was hands down the best brunch in LA.. or at least the best brunch we've had
.... and we've hand plenty
we ordered the ricotta muffin to start
(warm muffin with blueberry and ricotta in the middle served with a smear of butter and jam)

and the savory waffles and tomato braised egg polenta as entrees
(and mimosas and this cucumber//mint soda drink)
we were beyond full but couldnt stop eating
it was just soo good!
i'm already thinking of the next "occassion" as an excuse to go back.
i'm thinking a weekend morning is a good one, really...

we walked around abbot kinney for a bit in the 72 degree, not a cloud in the sky kind of weather
to burn off the bajillion calories we had just consumed
and then headed out for our sailing lesson//cruise around marina del rey.
this was no sit back and let the captain take over while we lay out
nope - we were all hands on deck (no pun intended)
pulling jibs, stearing, tightening wenches, luffing main sails...
(i still dont really know all that means...)
but it was so fun!

taylor was clearly the star student.
but thats not saying much given i was more concerned with getting great pictures
and soaking up the sun

 this crazy exciting and overwhelming week has culminated into the perfect weekend
i'm loving the spring and looking forward to the summer.
happy 26th birthday my dear
now on to a big barbeque tomorrow with family and friends!!!
happy day!